Ask Dr.Kafds v2
Originally posted by slay3rhey kafds and iso1, i have a problem, how do i quit smoking? been smoking for 2 years now, and i think it's time to stop :(
If you feel like you need to stop, go for it! Smoking is not so good feature of character. Ofcourse it's simply to say "Cmon man, go for it! Stop smoking!" But it's not so easy to do this, huh? Smoking is addiction which you cant simply stop. 2 years is fucking big number as for me. I've never faced with the problem of smoking, but my friends have some metods of solving this "problem".
1st method Go to the shop. Buy 5-10 pack of the most BAD cigaretts as you know. Came home, and start smoke as much as you can. My good friend , after smoking 3 packs of cigaretts didnt even want to watch on them.
2nd method You need to go to the specialist, share your problem with someone who really good in all those stuff. I'm sure he will help you much more than i.
Tbh, if i were you, i wont even start smoking, but you've done such a mistake and here's the result. You are addicted to cigaretts, as a 2 month child who addicted to milk.
Originally posted by nobody^Hey Dr. Iso/kafds.
Not really a serious problem but yet it's quite annoying.
It's related with the good old fps.
Sometimes(I write sometimes because I fix it randomly somehow and just when I tend to go happy, it fucks everything up.)
When the problem appears, I get fps drops to 30-50 each 5 seconds from 99. I noticed that when I go offline in steam, I dont have the problem, but then, when I join any server I get kicked with the following client error: Client timed out while answering challenge. I also think(not 100% sure) it affects my computer at all. The same time the fps drops to 30-50 vidz in youtube lag, too. Hope you can save me, Doctor. :)
I've been faced with same problem as you. Strange fps drops from 99 to 30. How did i fixed it? Go to your NVIDIA control pannel. Search for Adjusting image viewing. You've found it ? Such a nice boy. Then you need to change it to maximum perfomance. After doing this go to 3d parameter control. Choose global parameter. Try to change all the stuff to minmal , you need to minimize your using of graphic resources. If it wont help, go to Programm Settings. Choose your Hl.exe, and do the same thing as you've done in global parameter, minimize your resources. Then restart your pc.
Ofcourse it can not help you, if problem situated not in this. Mb it can be in your net. I have modem atm, and my net is amazingly slow.. That's why when i have opened steam and i'm playing on lan, i still have this fps-drops. Also the problem can hide in your pc. If you simply have old computer and oldschool videocard, mb it's better to change it? But i hope that first method will help you much more then second.
Originally posted by chrizZoDear Prof. Dr. iSo1 and / or / and not / or not Prof. Dr. Dr. Dr. kafds,
my request is related to kaffee's comment in a very humiliating way for me, because I am one of these abusing little rats that forces him into unconditional devotion. While I read his appeal for help addressed to you, that reached my innermost sense of empathy, I was moved to tears by his immense grief in the same way I felt anger and shame for what I did.
My conscience tormented me for hours until it constrained me to contact him about this matter. With my open and direct way to highlight our issue, I once more caused an awkward situation that overstraind our social interaction in a way we couldn't handle reasonably. Our conversation ended abruptly in a torturing silence.
Why is everything I do leading into the wrong direction? Even when talking to very intelligent life forms like kaffee, I successfully destruct every commonality and feeling of a relationship within minutes, although kaffee's infinite tolerance and comprehension makes that almost impossible!
Why is this earth and all its residents so foreign and hostile towards me? Why is everyone so different compared to myself? Even if I do actions other humans consider as positive and constructive, that lead into the right direction for them, like the proposal to approach kaffee about our problem, my tries steadily decay until I find myself left isolated and alone in an insurmountable abyss.
Hopefully you can help me in my problematic state of mind and please reveal me a way to apologize to kaffee for my parasitic personality.
I can say some advices to you, but i'm almost sure that they will be not so good as i wanted it to be. I'm only beginner and kinda disciple of kafds. My level of development in such question not so high as kafds's level, even if i'm almost 19 for now. I hope that Dr.Kafds will help you to solve this problem but it will be lil bit later, be patient please.
dear dr iso1/kafds
i have one problem is prestrafe in sbj
my sbj prestrafe alway is 24x 25x some time is 3xx
how i fix this ???
Chris, less drugs and you'll be okay, okay?
Dear kafds, why are you still banned?
Originally posted by mms 903dear dr iso1/kafds
i have one problem is prestrafe in sbj
my sbj prestrafe alway is 24x 25x some time is 3xx
how i fix this ???
mms 903 when you run try to watch that your speed is 250~ its about 3 steps with "W" then jump and try to land at 29x~,for first time u can use /speed to train ur pre, then mby you gonna do it easy :D P.S. im not kafds or iso2, just wanted to help to :D
Originally posted by mms 903dear dr iso1/kafds
i have one problem is prestrafe in sbj
my sbj prestrafe alway is 24x 25x some time is 3xx
how i fix this ???
First of all you need to practice a lot. It's the main purpose for you.
There are several styles of doing good sbj prestrafe. As for me, the most suitable one is to jump with one strafe.
You just need to know feel when you can release the duck.
"You pressed jump too early" DUUDE, if you have 250-249 pre on sbj, this words dedicated to you.
Hold duck lil bit more and release it lil bit later, kay?
"Prestarfe 304.9(300.0)" DUUUDE, if you have 300+ pre on sbj, this words dedicated to you.
Try to hold your strafe lil bit less. Cuz when you holding it too long , your gain is going to be very big and you simply wont have good pre.
Originally posted by GargoyleChris, less drugs and you'll be okay, okay?
Chris, please stop using drugs. It's not so cool as you think. Way better for you to go on street, have some fun with friends, go to the gym, have a gf to fuck, drink some milk etc.
I hope you wont be one from that millions who are drug-addicted nowadays..
"No more drugs and you'll be okay! - there's the key to better life.
Originally posted by RemoteDear kafds, why are you still banned?
It's all about Xj admins. You can simply check the ban-list to see why kafds banned.
Originally posted by finzErI also have another little question, specially for Dr. Kafds this time or any other finnish fellow.
I've seen quite a lot of teenagers spitting on the floor, in the street. Both girls and boys. I find this very disgusting. I even had to go to another bus stop because of one chick spitting massive shits next to me... it almost made me throw up. Anyway, is this a sort of finnish-teen-thing? ofc some people do that in France, UK or somewhere else i've been to but it's nothing like this. I was really shocked.
Kind regards,
finzer
Here's an aswer from Dr.Kafds himself.
This is a great and an interesting question, finzEr. This phenomenon is common and you will most likely witness kids doing it while walking around in an urban area, and it will certainly annoy or even disgust many people.
Some years ago I actually read the results of a large poll held in most European countries, and I remember that Finnish people replied the subject of spitting as the fourth most annoying thing they encounter in their everyday lives; only people who drive too close to them, people who litter and people who cut in lines came higher in this poll.
Spit, per se, is a useful secretion. It is a required element in the process of digestion and it also protects the teeth and mucosae. A normal person produces about a liter or a liter and a half of spit in a nychthemeron. There are, however, big differences in the secretion of spit among people. Men and "big" people in general often generate spit more rapidly.
To a certain degree, spitting is allowed in some situations, for example during or after a rough physical activity, for example an athletic performance. At least among ice skaters spitting is quite a popular yet disgusting habit. In common day-to-day situations and interactions it is disapproved of.
Well, why do young people spit then?
The changes during puberty can partially explain this phenomenon. When you are growing up as a kid towards adulthood, the amount of spit sucreted changes gradually. Boys often experience bursts of growth during puberty and during the process of growing their salivary glands grow and produce spit with a much higher rate of speed than usually.
Smoking can have an effect as well. In a short span of time smoking will actually increase the productivity of the salivary gland, so spitting might be a part of kids experimenting with tobacco. Finnish kids smoke quite a lot. People who have smoked for a longer period of time do not have this problem. Additionally, smoking temporarily increases the pH-level of spit causing it to taste different, so they might be spitting to get rid of the bad taste in their mouths.
When you're talking about young people, it's always good to consider some sort of a youthful rebellion as well: they are "protesting" against the world of the adults and their parents, they are in mutiny agaisnt sophistication and they are against good manners.
But most importantly we are just talking about a bad habit. Most often a person will get rid of the excess saliva in their mouths by swallowing it. There shouldn't be any problems in the anatomy and physiology of adolescents which would prevent them from swallowing the spit. They could just swallow it, but they choose not to (except indoors). I doubt those kids who spit in the streets all the time have a cup next to their bed to spit on.
I doubt the youngsters really have an explanation about this phenomenon themselves either. It's somehow fashionable in this generation, it's a part of the culture of being "chill" and hanging out with your buddies outside. When a group of kids with the same age are gathered up, in a ring for example, it becomes an accepted habit among the youth. A habit learned in a group will often follow to an individuals own life and he will continue spitting even if he is alone, for example in a bus stop. And everyone knows that it's hard to get rid of bad habits.
Is there anything we can do about it?
It is absolutely and completely futile for an outsider to walk the streets and rant the young people outside about this. It's the parents job to raise their kids properly. They have adopted parts of the behavioural patterns of their parents, and thus doing the same mistakes over and over again. A more powerful way would be to ban spitting outside altogether, it could be a part of the city legislation system like they've done in Singapore as well (there are punishments for spitting). If you were given a fine for spitting, it would have an effect, but who would be making sure this law would be followed? Should there be groups patrolling the streets to stalk for potential subjects? No. Quite frankly that would be insane, and there aren't even resources for something like that. The best thing to do is to just get used to it and swallow your anger/disgust in the moment. Just hope that it's a generational thing which we will get rid of eventually.
I haven't thought about this being a particular problem in Finland myself, but I'm just used to my environments I guess. It could be, that since Finnish people are generally quiet and it's a part of our culture to "stick to ourselves" and to rarely interfere with the lives of other people that this problem hasn't disappeared. If there's no one to resist the action, the action will continue.
Dear Dr. iSo1/kafds
I have a question about Kreedz longjumping.
If someone tries to land 249block(using LJ technique) and he lands it, after that he doesn't move at all, then he looks down to the block, so the haircross should be the same position as the edge of the block, right?
here are the pictures, so you can understand my question
after we land the block,and we look down,it always looks like this?
picture1
or is it possible to look like this after land the block?
picture2
This is so fun to read. Keep'em coming lads :)
Hey btw kafds I've some doubts to ask too, ill take out some time in the near future and write them down, if possible do reply.
And chrizZo you crazy what the hell did you write in there lol :D
Originally posted by WhitegodDear Dr. iSo1/kafds
I have a question about Kreedz longjumping.
If someone tries to land 249block(using LJ technique) and he lands it, after that he doesn't move at all, then he looks down to the block, so the haircross should be the same position as the edge of the block, right?
here are the pictures, so you can understand my question
after we land the block,and we look down,it always looks like this?
picture1
or is it possible to look like this after land the block?
picture2
Okay , take a look at this. http://steamcommunity.com/sharedfiles/filedetails/?id=95498436
As you can see when you look down, you wont see the same situation as on your screen. It's all depends on distance and jof. So my answer is NO. It wont looks like you think after you land block.
About second screen. Seems like you are talking about screen which can show you fake ND(no duck) distance. You think that you've landed this one, but its not true. Look properly on your last strafes, if your loss are higher then 20-30-40. It's probably bugged. So my answer is NO again.
Originally posted by pradThis is so fun to read. Keep'em coming lads :)
Hey btw kafds I've some doubts to ask too, ill take out some time in the near future and write them down, if possible do reply.
And chrizZo you crazy what the hell did you write in there lol :D
You dont need to havy any doubts about asking us. You simply need to wright your problem here, this thread was created to help people with their problems. Dont hesitate to share it with us. We will do our best to help you. Even if i dont know chrizzo personally, i am almost sure that he's very interesting person to talk with. I hope he will delete somebody from his friend-list and will add me to his steam.
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Wait for an answer chrizzo, it will be finished soon.
Dear Dr. iSo1/kafds
While I were reading the problems of other members, i had a feeling that i got some extra gas in my stomach so i farted. After this i started to think... Why do people fart? What does fart have in itself? Why the feeling to have to fart comes more likely when you're surrounded by some hot chicks? What determines hot chick? Does farting and chicks have something common with each other? Or does beautiful womens even exist?
Hi Doc's can you make some explanation or make some tutorial how to get 295~ pre in forward DCJ :)
Special answer for chrizzo. Sorry for being lil bit late.
if you torment yourself by behaving in a certain way, you need to stop and make a rational analysis of all the positive and negative sides your actions can potentially have on you and the people your actions are directly affected by. If you feel stricken by agonizing guilt and grief whenever you contact your dear friend kaffee about the things you have on your mind and he feels burdened by whatever it is you have to say, you should find some alternative place to unburden yourself of your sins. Don't consider yourself a parasitic person only because you are fortunate enough to have a friend who you can trust with your innermost feelings without getting hurt. It's perfectly normal to talk about these things to the people you care about, but when it starts to bother either one of you, you should seek for help outside this relationship, and when you do this. You should have a chat with kaffee about this issue, because it's always the best option to resolve any potential mishaps between the people who are involved in the situation themselves. You can get rid of some of that destructive guilt by talking to him about your feelings. I'm sure he will understand and forgive you for what you've done. You can tell him that you appreciate everything he has done for you and you wish to seek for outside help (i.e. therapy etc.) because you love him and care deeply about him. Tell him you don't want to hurt either one of you anymore.
You might feel things are going to the wrong direction all the time, but you should also focus on the positive things that happen in your life. Absolution comes from within you, and it's up to you to change things. Some people – myself included – have inadequate social skills, and they might have a hard time at keeping a conversation alive. Perhaps you are more introverted than extroverted and you prefer keeping to yourself, and perhaps these conversations end up in torturing silence due to your inability to socialize. It's nothing to be ashamed of. Some of the most successful people in life were introverts, and it's just a part of your personality. If you want to talk to your friend kaffee, just do it and don't forfeit. Sometimes people are quiet when talked to, but they might actually be waiting for you to continue on about what you were talking, and it can lead to awkward situations if these silent situations are misinterpreted as lack of interest or something like that. Perhaps you bring up subjects for which kaffee is unable to offer any real input due to the subject being either about you or about something too hard to comprehend.
The world isn't hostile towards you, chrizZo. You feel this way because you feel you're too different from others. Don't misinterpret the differences as hostility, because they're not out to get you. Sometimes it's just incredibly hard to fit in society due to differing tastes and views on a multitude of subjects. You should work on your tolerance for the stupidity of others and make some connections to people. There are a lot of people in the world who are good enough to fit in your friend circle, and you have to go out and do your best at fitting in to the society. It's a hard task even though all it takes is to get up and start a yoga class and ask some of your fellow trainers to go out for a beer one day. People are different, but there are always common factors which you can build bridges with. I feel quite weird talking about this subject to someone else as I really have no true friends myself and I am quite nihilistic as well, but I hope these words still helped you a bit despite them not coming from experience but from the very depths of my consciousness. As I told kaffee, it's important to find a balance between selflessness and selfishness as it will help you with a lot of things, I'll advice the same thing for you. It's good to be open and honest as well as receptive and accepting of all creeds and beliefs.
I hope you found some part of this post helpful.
13/09/2012 16:03(edited 03/07/2016 14:53)Hello iSo1, kafds.
I'm not sure weather I should consider this a problem, but I think I've lost my path in life. Recently I feel so detached from this world, from several years my perception of reality has been changing drastically, and at this point in my life it's completely twisted. I feel like I don't exist and nothing matters at all. Life's passing in front of me and I'm simply an observer, without any purpose to live whatsoever. I'm apathetic towards everything that happens to me and I'm pretty sure I'll die all alone, even though I'm still young. My mental state is a mess, I think I might be even losing my sanity. I'm completely unable of human connection and I've developed slightly sadistic inclinations. Not that I wish everyone to die, but to me people are just walking robots, and their essence means nothing to me. I often imagine the end of the world, and how we all just die. I don't even feel depressed, more like "bored" would be the right word. My motivation is always drowned in dark thoughts because of my degenerated concept of reality. I'm so tired to look at life in such a cynical, nihilistic way, but I just can't help it. I've been so detached from society for quite a while now, and I'm not even sure if I wanna be part of it anymore.
From the outside my life seems perfect. My parents are taking care of everything, they only expect me to finish university, have a great life and eventually get married. But I really believe this will never happen, since I've lost my ability to communicate with people long time ago. I hurt a lot a girl that had interest in me. She was decent, a good person, bright and full of emotions. As time went by I became very manipulative and arrogant in my behavior towards people and found satisfaction in hurting them. I started distancing from her, acting cold and being a dick, which eventually put an end to our relationship (and I was somehow relieved).
I feel kinda lost, like I don't belong to this world and my whole existance is absurd and absolutely meaningless. Lately I've been wondering what it would be like if I just pack some stuff and leave home, traveling around the world with almost nothing. I know I should probably seek a medical treatment for my condition, and this thought makes me feel so weird, because there was a time when I used to enjoy my life...
13/09/2012 18:57You sound exactly like my one belgium mate. I wish doctor could help you though because the problem is pretty common among young people. Yours sounds serious though.
Dr. kafds could not get a hold of iSo1, so he asked me to post this for him insdeed. This answer is for shNz, and everyone else who has similar issues as shNz. I'm also experiencing similar emotions, to some degree, shNz, so i know how you feel =/
I wish you all the best shNz! <3
And here is Dr. kafds reply;
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NOTE: I apologize for the incoherence and lack of structure in this reply.
I can relate to your current situation, shNz, for I have experienced (and still do to some degree) similar emotions as you have. My personal opinion would be that the feeling of being lost, the sense of purposelessness and the general lack of care for the world at hand is a very tough problem to crack even though it may have answers which are seemingly easy to understand and follow. These difficulties arise from the aforementioned symptom of lacking care.
Happiness, success and the feeling of stability aren't always things you need to chase after. You have to remember that it all has to come from within you. Start doing actions which have a positive effect on your mind instead of doing nothing or aimlessly wandering around in search of an answer.
My opinion on what a person in your (read: our) situation should do, is to first define yourself as a person. Figure out what it is you want out of life, figure out what the driving forces behind your actions are, figure out what things motivate you ubiquitously. Finding the answers to these important questions can be difficult, but I'll share some tips which I've found useful for my own problems.
1. Analyze and define the goals you have in life
The feeling of lacking a direction in life comes from an individuals inability to define what your goal, your destination, is. You can't get what you want if you don't know what you want is. A goal doesn't have to be an objective you can measure analytically or materially, a goal can be something simple like living lovingly and happily with your family and/or friends.
You may find yourself asking what the point of having goals in life is if life itself is "dull" and worthless. We all die and that's the end of our earthly voyage and ultimately none of our actions truly matter since we are but rotting piles of flesh floating on a speck of dust in an infinite sea of cosmic peculiarities. Well, since life isn't a video game where you can pick extra lives and start over, we need to make this one life of ours count.
Every single action you take should contribute towards achieving your goals. Concentrate all of your energy and focus into your goal, which could be anything which helps you move towards a happier life.
2. Fix your sleeping pattern and your diet
Guiding you to eat healthier might sound slightly dumb at first, but eating a balanced and a healthy diet with nutricious fluids routinely instead of junk food and alcohol at random times during the day or night can have a direct effect on your mood. The link between fast food and depression has been scientifically confirmed in several studies.
The link between unstable sleeping patterns and depression has been proven with a wide array of studies and theories all around the world. Sleep deprivation as well as sleeping too much can affect the psyche negatively, but also irregular sleeping patterns effect moods greatly. Finding a job, a hobby or a place to study in can/will help you to network with people and simply to give you a reason to get up from the bed in the morning and go to sleep in the evening.
Alcohol and drugs are catalysts for misery, a true depressant, even though at times they can even seem like viable escape routes. Never resort to this, because it can mess you up completely.
3. Do things that make you feel good
Do whatever you know can uplift your moods. Personally, I sometimes go out wearing a mask while being armed with a water gun and I stalk for strangers for prey. I splash them with a little bit of water and observe their fury. This amuses me to no end, even though I know it's a bit wrong. You should know your limits and stick within legal range – the activity I mentioned doing is illegal in Finland for several reasons: it's illegal to wear masks, it's illegal to carry a weapon-like item which can be misidentified into "the real thing" and I even think splashing people with water can be turned into a courtroom fight.
Do you enjoy playing an instrument, enjoy writing/painting/creating anything? Pursue whatever creative activity you enjoy, or try a new one. Using your imagination will uncover your innermost emotions that are currently hidden in your subconscious mind.
You know yourself the best, and I could make an endless amount of suggestions for you which just won't fit for your personality. I think you know what actions help you feel happy, and those are the things you should be doing.
Be willing to break out from your routines and do something spontaneous and radical!
4. Socialize
Socialization of some sort is a thing of vital importance for most people to remain sane, even though there are some happy introverts who make great exceptions.
Make a conscious effort to spend time with your friends and try meeting some new people. It's always a nice thing to diversify your social circle with new contacts, since every person can offer a unique perspective on anything you're dealing with. Their experiences can help you understand yourself. I'd argue that it's crucial to maintain or revive a social life if you don't feel heard and supported in your life. Seek out for positive and like-minded people who can support and inspire you.
If you have any harmful relationships in your life, they simply need to go. If someone only causes you stress and misery, it's better to distance yourself from that source of negativity. It's beneficial to spend more of your time with people who can unearth positivity within you and less with those who bury it deeper.
You should also always keep in mind that it's important to listen to what others have to say. A fresh, new perspective can help you discover new sides of yourself. Pay attention to what others have to say, because their words can convey truths which you have hidden from yourself on purpose. Everyone has a different view on the world, and their feedback could help you see what you've been missing in your life. An outside perspective can be just what you need to figure things out.
5. Write a diary/journal
A diary isn't something you simply log your daily events to. You can write it like you write a journal: express your thoughts, ideas, experiences and feelings in the form of text. Your journal is a summary of the things that go through your mind and your experiences in life. Write sincerely and remember that nobody besides you will read it.
You don't have to write daily or make any sort of a set schedule for writing in the journal. You can just write whenever you feel like it and have time. Don't force yourself to write, let the habit develop naturally.
Going over your journal and analyzing it helps you make new realizations about yourself and your life.
Depression/dysthymia
Dysthymia? What is that? Here's an excerpt from Wikipedia: Dysthymia (English pronunciation: /dɪs.ˈθaɪ.miË.É™/), also known as neurotic depression, is a mood disorder consisting of chronic depression, with less severe but longer lasting symptoms than major depressive disorder. Dysthymia has a number of typical characteristics: low drive, low self-esteem, and a low capacity for pleasure in everyday life. Mild degrees of dysthymia may result in people withdrawing from stress and avoiding opportunities for failure. In more severe cases of dysthymia people may even withdraw from daily activities.
I think that's a subject you might want to do some research on, and perhaps find some nice literature on it. I read a book titled Beating the Blues: New Approaches to Overcoming Dysthymia and Chronic Mild Depression and it helped me a lot. I highly recommend it if you're feeling hesitant about finding someone to talk to in an earnest face-to-face session.
I wish any of this helped you, shNz, but I know it's hard to really find any solace to your current situation. You only need to have the balls to overcome your fears and be brave enough to actually perform any of the suggestions I made or simply find more help.
P.S. And to add in the end here: if you feel like this sense of unimportance comes from your low self-esteem or lack of confidence, these tips won't do you much. You obviously want to change since you decided to post here, but we may not be the best source of help for you. Don't be afraid to seek for more help on this subject, since it can be hard to "shake off".
Thx for help elite.
EDIT:
As far as i'm doctor too. I will try to tell you one story shnz, which one will mb help you.
I've had the same situation as you, i was having really strong depression 2 years ago. All this began in school. When i was walking throughout long school coridors, i just asked myself : "Is this a real life? We doing the same things all day long, like robots." I've lost my interest to life and my great depression started. I was acting like emo, when my friends were trying to help me, i was just ignoring them. Nobody wants to talk with me, MY BEST FRIENDS ( i thought there were best) FUCKING LEFT FROM ME. They said : "Dont want to have any buisness with you anymore. Fucking emoboy". My parents were acting just in same way as yours shnz.
Once in the class, one teacher asked me what's the problem with me. I've raised my feet and began to speek about all things that came up to my mind, about useless of life and all this shit which happend to me. After my speech, there were total silence in the room, teacher said me to sit down. I was looking on their faces, i saw fear , violence, contempt and incomprehension in their eyes. They didnt understood me at all.. Depression was growin up, fueled with a help of unwillingness to change myself to better. How did all this finished ?
I've met a girl. My first love. I've found the ligh in the dark, which bring me back to life. She was totally amazing, i've finnaly find something new for myself. We were spending a lot of time together, she was really really smart and bright-minded person. I was having pleasure simply talking with her. All my depression gone, my bad emotions and feelings dissapeare, just vanished into thin air. I've become normall again.
And what i'm thinking right now. When i were having this situiation connected with my depression. I couldnt do anything about that. I just closed my eyes on all this "real" things which happens with us all the time. I cant tune the whole world under me, but i can find the thing which will tune me under the world.
Hope you will find this thing too.
Dear doctors, how vulnerable is XJ's ftp or the whole website to protocol analyzer, but especially the ftp, since it's easier to track and get hold of pw's.
14/09/2012 13:08(edited 14/09/2012 13:09)Thank you very much my dear friends. I appreciate every wrod you wrote in order to help me with my condition.
I put some thoughts on my situation, and it really isn't that bad at all. Being alone (except of my mom and brother) pretty much all the time is tolerable. I don't like social events anyway, because I find them to be extremely boring. I've been analyzing human behavior for quite some time, and I found that most relationships are unecessary complicated, superficial and end up causing pain. Shortly, they're exhausting, and I'd rather let them come naturally, besides I still got few friendships, which I respect and care a lot about. There's a plan I came up with, which I honestly believe would help me establish my sense of self. It's a goal I'm currently focused on, which right now seems to be the only thing I've still got some interest in. Although it won't be easy to achive, I'll do my best, because deep inside I still believe in miracles, and I'm sure many good things will happen. Sometimes life is pain, but it also is a miracle and I'm not done with it, so giving up is not an option.
Again, thank you guys. I wish you all the best, too <3
We are pleased that we were able to help you.
It's kinda weard but you are the first person who simply said "Thank you for helping me".
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