A POST OVERFLOWED WITH TEARS

Hey guys. I got very sentimental today. I accidentaly started to roll back in history on XJ feed and in a couple of hours later got to 2010s and even earlier. I know others do that sometimes too. I recently started to hate myself for playing video games a lot and stopped. And I've lost almost any interest for gaming and kz in particular and even said words that I regret to have spent a huge amount of time and part of my childhood on this game. But today when I had gone back so far in 2008 it was a heavy blast of happy memories to my eyes. There have been an immense amount of fun moments and times I have totally forgotten of but now I remember. How I first started kz friendships with guys I then kept playing with for years ahead in future. My first demos on XJ. My first movie made by BLuex in 2011 or so. How I was first offered to become an admin on XJ and how I almost shat in pants out of happiness. And how I loved to do my admin part jobs and I was happy to see people spend their time good and that would mean that I did my part of job good. I saw my first newspost, my first wr. Remembered a lot of fun newsposts and moments. How the community was so big and there was always something happening. Newsposts would gather 50 or 100 comments in 24 hours. The irc times with meele cups and stupid burger talks on skype with toytoy. My best friendships. Call me a crying girl and I will smash your face. I am still brutal.

Just needed to release what wanted outside. Pretty much everyone reading this can relate to my words for the bigger part. Just wanted to say hi to everyone hid in the shadow, thanks to everyone who shared our time together, you know who you are right! Also, I kindly apologize to anyone who ever got in trouble with me. I am a good guy and never really desired to make harm to anyone. Thanks as well to all the good guys that we both know each other but never really got in talk. KZ is my childhood but now I have different interests. It's time for me to let it go. The cry is over, thanks for your time.

Some of us didn't jump off the moving train but we still carry the soul in this train. I didn't mean it in the way that I'm never gonna open any game again, but I am on the next page now. The premise here is that I understood that the time I wasted on XJ turns out not so "wasted". Of course I regret that I didn't use part of my gaming time for some important things but afterall it was fun.

Yeah, can't help to think it's around that time we used to be buddies ShoCky ...
Then you went all mad and started to disobey me like Anakin did to Obi-Wan (I being Obi-Wan ofc). Such a shame really, you had so much to learn from me MEH

Originally posted by Hardbitter

I don't remember us ever being buddies WOOF but if I ever offended you I want you to know that it was never my intention. XJ doesn't really deserve a guy like you. User of the century!

Some of us did bigger mistakes than others but it's still a part of the history we all look back to with the smile. No matter how gay it would sound but at some point we all grew up all together and spent our childhood at our own playground. It is amazing when you think about it. 10 years ago we were 16. Now we are 26. Grown up gentlemen still at the same place. So many things happened, so many things have been done. Soon enough we'll start to slowly fade away from here separate our lives due an actual life. And how many of us will remember about XJ in 40 yo and how many of us will remember that there was a guy on the internet named WOOF who used to post strong ass posts. And what would he look like about now, after 15 years. How many of us at the age of 40 would e-mail an old buddy and ask wassup. Ima out for more famkies. Peace out my buddies yo!

happen to find any troll posts by me?

It's never too late to try to change your life, ivansky. Depression is something you can cure if you really wish to. First right step would be to reduce your gaming activity to the minimum and start do things that really matter. I'm not going to teach you here, but that is what I did. And yes Ggs and eFFort are the legendary duo :D It was fun to watch their home made videos :)

You always bashing me though.. Calling me fat on instagram and stuff.. :/

You were always a player that I could look up to. Nice post to read :)

goodbye shock, you were nice, I'll be missing you.